Looking at the rate of how fast time goes by, i'm not too sure if anyone particularly myself can do things or achieve as many things i desired for.

2008 will definitely be marked for rest of my life. I lost the only person that i could trust 100%, someone so dear to me, my mother.

But i kinda have submit myself to fate, so instead of being selfish to see her suffer every day, i have to accept what i have lost.

Sometimes i realised i did not have the chance to fulfil many things that a daughter should have for her mom.

But all i can offer now is just prayers that she's somewhere called Heaven.

Besides losing her, i almost lost someone else too but that did not happen. The person is stillwith me and am crossing my finger that such things never happen again, Never.

It's so dissapointing, sad and my patience was definitely running out thus thinking that its just over. But i guess it was more like a test for both of us, So that we dont take for granted that certain things needs to be look after indeed. Escaping to London helps a lot too!

Well, that episode is over and coming into 2009, i have no resolutions fixed except that i just am hoping for a much better year. Like getting pregnant or wht...hahah. Getting a year older makes me realised that there's no need to wait for this and that, just go for it if u want it.

Its been a week since i move in to my dad's house. Our flat has been sold! at last! it was so frustating keeping up with the monthly instalments since it was constantly increasing every year! $1900 a month realy sucks!

But still taking my time before we start looking for a new flat. 4 of us are sleeping together in one room. Cookie & Oreo are kinda enjoying it as they have their little hse to sleep in at night. Just that my asthma has also act up recently due to sleeping with them.

Keep using my inhaler that i do nt know if it will cause damage to myself. chett! Just too lazy to see the doctor. Probably i shld do so soon.

Ok, adios to my blog here, c u soon.

PS: I love her very much. There is not a day that i go through without thinking of her.